As I sit on the eve of 2012 and look to starting 2013, I'm thinking about all that happened during this past year. I see God's hand in every part. His blessings, His faithfulness, His grace and mercy, His provision, the list goes on. The latter part of 2011 and the first part of 2012 were possibly the roughest times in my life to date. I experienced moments of darkness and loneliness that I never felt before and pray I never feel again. But if I do, I'll remember that my Lord is with me every moment of every day, just as he was during those dark times. It was through God's Word and prayer that I was able to get through each hour, sometimes each minute. So while those times were dark and painful, I praise God for them. They developed in me a faith that is unshakable I true dependence on the Lord; a freedom to move through this life, laying the burdens and cares at the foot of His cross. Once again my God proved His faithfulness, once again I was reminded of His love.
As I look into 2013, I'm surprised by my lack of desire to set goals, to plan my year ahead. If there's anything the past two years have shown me it's that I can't plan my future, and I certainly can't control it. My earthly father's sudden passing shook me to my core. It unhinged my ability to set my life course. And I think this a good thing. Instead, I will walk out each day in the hands of my Father, trusting in the Holy Spirit to guide me, following the steps of Jesus. My Father's undeniable love will draw me close and keep me safe, and that's all I need to know.
May God bless you and yours in 2013. May we all serve Him with a new devotion and commitment to sharing His love and mercy with all who enter our lives, however fleeting their appearance may be.
In Him, peace.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Cheapening the gift...
When I look around me right now I see a lot of good things happening to a lot of good people. Marriages, new jobs, new babies, good moves, happy families, new relationships. If I look at my own life I see a lot of good things as well...yet at times I still feel myself wanting. Wanting what others have, wanting what I don't.
When I find myself doing this I try quickly to nip it in the bud, to rein in those thoughts and feelings, and to focus instead on the good, the true, the holy in my own life. For there is some much good, true, and holy. My God loves me. He has a plan for me. His timing is perfect. His grace is all encompassing. His love is unending. His mercies endure. His Spirit is all powerful, all knowing, and all present.
I don't want to lose sight of all that God has blessed me with. I don't want my feelings of desire and want to cheapen what I know God will bless me with in the future. When I was a child I used to try and find my birthday/Christmas gifts before it was time to open them....I just couldn't wait to see what I was getting. And yet, every time I found them, every time I spoiled the surprise, it cheapened the ultimate gift. There's something about waiting until THE right moment to receive something that makes it all the more special. There's something about knowing that you didn't do anything to force something that it just happened when it was supposed to, how it was supposed to. That's where I want to be....walking in the knowledge that each day God allows what's supposed to happen, when it's supposed to happen....and there's nothing I need to do to make it happen. He is in control. He is trustworthy. He has my best interest at heart.
If God told me the plan now, I'd be far less likely to cling to Him everyday. I'd be less likely to search Him with all of my heart. I'd be less likely to call out to Him, less likely to fall on my knees crying out His name, knowing that I need Him to get through the next day, hour, minute. And where would that leave me? Empty. I've been there before and that's not a place I want to go back to. So, as much as it pains me at the time, I will continue to walk in wonder. I will continue to live out each day not knowing what the next will bring. I will continue to trust that my God has it all figured out and that He'll reveal each step to me in His perfect timing. Only then will my future bear all of the richness it deserves, without my meager attempts to cheapen it. Only then will God's undeniable love be fully realized, fully felt, fully relied upon.
When I find myself doing this I try quickly to nip it in the bud, to rein in those thoughts and feelings, and to focus instead on the good, the true, the holy in my own life. For there is some much good, true, and holy. My God loves me. He has a plan for me. His timing is perfect. His grace is all encompassing. His love is unending. His mercies endure. His Spirit is all powerful, all knowing, and all present.
I don't want to lose sight of all that God has blessed me with. I don't want my feelings of desire and want to cheapen what I know God will bless me with in the future. When I was a child I used to try and find my birthday/Christmas gifts before it was time to open them....I just couldn't wait to see what I was getting. And yet, every time I found them, every time I spoiled the surprise, it cheapened the ultimate gift. There's something about waiting until THE right moment to receive something that makes it all the more special. There's something about knowing that you didn't do anything to force something that it just happened when it was supposed to, how it was supposed to. That's where I want to be....walking in the knowledge that each day God allows what's supposed to happen, when it's supposed to happen....and there's nothing I need to do to make it happen. He is in control. He is trustworthy. He has my best interest at heart.
If God told me the plan now, I'd be far less likely to cling to Him everyday. I'd be less likely to search Him with all of my heart. I'd be less likely to call out to Him, less likely to fall on my knees crying out His name, knowing that I need Him to get through the next day, hour, minute. And where would that leave me? Empty. I've been there before and that's not a place I want to go back to. So, as much as it pains me at the time, I will continue to walk in wonder. I will continue to live out each day not knowing what the next will bring. I will continue to trust that my God has it all figured out and that He'll reveal each step to me in His perfect timing. Only then will my future bear all of the richness it deserves, without my meager attempts to cheapen it. Only then will God's undeniable love be fully realized, fully felt, fully relied upon.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Joy...Complete Joy
If you haven't read the first 17 verses of John chapter 15, stop reading this and go read them. They are a powerful reminder of the importance of staying connected to our creator. How do we do this? Through prayer, studying the bible, fellowship with other believers, trusting in Him, and presenting our requests.
What do we receive if we do this? Joy. His joy in us and our joy complete. (Our joy never really could be complete without His joy right?)
This was my reading today from Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest, the bold emphasis is mine. (If you don't have a daily devotional, or are looking for a new one, I highly suggest this one. You can read it online or pick up a copy at almost any Christian (and many regular) bookstore.)
"What was the joy that Jesus had? Joy should not be confused with happiness. In fact, it is an insult to Jesus Christ to use the word happiness in connection with Him. The joy of Jesus was His absolute self-surrender and self-sacrifice to His Father - the joy of doing that which the Father sent Him to do- '...who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross...' (Hebrews 12:2). 'I delight to do Your will, O my God...' (Psalm 40:8). Jesus prayed that our joy might continue fulfilling itself until it becomes the same joy as His. Have I allowed Jesus Christ to introduce His joy to me?
Living a full and overflowing life does not rest in bodily health, in circumstances, nor even in seeing God's work succeed, but in the perfect understanding of God, and in the same fellowship and oneness with Him that Jesus Himself enjoyed. But the first thing that will hinder this joy is the subtle irritability caused by giving too much thought to our circumstances. Jesus said, '...the cares of this world, ...choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful.' (Mark 4:19). And before we even realize what has happened, we are caught up in our cares. All that God has done for us is merely the threshold - He wants us to come to the place where we will be His witnesses and proclaim who Jesus is.
Have the right relationship with God, finding your joy there, and out of you 'will flow rivers of living water' (John 7:38). Be a fountain through which Jesus can pour His 'living water'. Stop being hypocritical and proud, aware only of yourself, and live 'your life...hidden with Christ in God' (Colossians 3:3). A person who has the right relationship with God lives a life as natural as breathing wherever he goes. The lives that have been the greatest blessing to you are the lives of those people who themselves were unaware of having been a blessing."
This passage is full of so many nuggets! Jesus received his joy from self-surrender and self-sacrifice. Do we wake up every morning and before we even get out of bed surrender our self to the Lord's will? Do we commit to laying down our lives for those around us? (John 15:13) Are we devoted to one another in love? Do we honor others above ourselves? (Romans 12:10)
Bodily health, our circumstances, and even seeing God's work isn't where we receive a full life. Instead, the fullness of life comes from our relationship with God, through a oneness with him. So why is it so hard to develop this oneness and then maintain it? As Chambers says, because we allow ourselves to focus too much on our own circumstances and the cares of this world. There is so much competing for our attention on a daily basis, little of it has anything to do with strengthening our relationship in Christ. Work, social responsibilities, social media, politics, "religion", family matters, friend issues, material belongings...all of these can distract us from focusing on God, from hearing His quite whisper. All of these can turn our thoughts inward, almost as a mode of self-protection.
The answer to these distractions? Chambers says, we should "have the right relationship with God." Easier said than done, right? But he does give us insight into how we can do this. Stop focusing so much on ourselves. Stop saying we love our brothers and sisters and yet never putting their needs before ours. Stop saying we love Jesus and yet not allowing His plans to override our plans. It's not easy, but nothing of great value ever is. We can begin today. We can chose to listen to God's voice over the thousands of voices shouting at us through TV, advertisements, billboards, Facebook, Twitter, the Internet. We can chose to go against the flow, to stand out, to be a little different, to shine like stars in the universe....for that is what we who are called to do. (Philippians 2:15). We can commit to taking a step forward, for standing up and standing out for what (and who) we know is true. It is then that our joy will be complete. It is then that His love will change us from the inside out.
I pray each of us will commit to surrendering ourselves to a God that loves us undeniably and to sacrificing ourselves for others, rather than living a life wholly centered on ourselves. If we do, I believe we will see mighty changes in this world, our temporary home. Amen.
What do we receive if we do this? Joy. His joy in us and our joy complete. (Our joy never really could be complete without His joy right?)
This was my reading today from Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest, the bold emphasis is mine. (If you don't have a daily devotional, or are looking for a new one, I highly suggest this one. You can read it online or pick up a copy at almost any Christian (and many regular) bookstore.)
"What was the joy that Jesus had? Joy should not be confused with happiness. In fact, it is an insult to Jesus Christ to use the word happiness in connection with Him. The joy of Jesus was His absolute self-surrender and self-sacrifice to His Father - the joy of doing that which the Father sent Him to do- '...who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross...' (Hebrews 12:2). 'I delight to do Your will, O my God...' (Psalm 40:8). Jesus prayed that our joy might continue fulfilling itself until it becomes the same joy as His. Have I allowed Jesus Christ to introduce His joy to me?
Living a full and overflowing life does not rest in bodily health, in circumstances, nor even in seeing God's work succeed, but in the perfect understanding of God, and in the same fellowship and oneness with Him that Jesus Himself enjoyed. But the first thing that will hinder this joy is the subtle irritability caused by giving too much thought to our circumstances. Jesus said, '...the cares of this world, ...choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful.' (Mark 4:19). And before we even realize what has happened, we are caught up in our cares. All that God has done for us is merely the threshold - He wants us to come to the place where we will be His witnesses and proclaim who Jesus is.
Have the right relationship with God, finding your joy there, and out of you 'will flow rivers of living water' (John 7:38). Be a fountain through which Jesus can pour His 'living water'. Stop being hypocritical and proud, aware only of yourself, and live 'your life...hidden with Christ in God' (Colossians 3:3). A person who has the right relationship with God lives a life as natural as breathing wherever he goes. The lives that have been the greatest blessing to you are the lives of those people who themselves were unaware of having been a blessing."
This passage is full of so many nuggets! Jesus received his joy from self-surrender and self-sacrifice. Do we wake up every morning and before we even get out of bed surrender our self to the Lord's will? Do we commit to laying down our lives for those around us? (John 15:13) Are we devoted to one another in love? Do we honor others above ourselves? (Romans 12:10)
Bodily health, our circumstances, and even seeing God's work isn't where we receive a full life. Instead, the fullness of life comes from our relationship with God, through a oneness with him. So why is it so hard to develop this oneness and then maintain it? As Chambers says, because we allow ourselves to focus too much on our own circumstances and the cares of this world. There is so much competing for our attention on a daily basis, little of it has anything to do with strengthening our relationship in Christ. Work, social responsibilities, social media, politics, "religion", family matters, friend issues, material belongings...all of these can distract us from focusing on God, from hearing His quite whisper. All of these can turn our thoughts inward, almost as a mode of self-protection.
The answer to these distractions? Chambers says, we should "have the right relationship with God." Easier said than done, right? But he does give us insight into how we can do this. Stop focusing so much on ourselves. Stop saying we love our brothers and sisters and yet never putting their needs before ours. Stop saying we love Jesus and yet not allowing His plans to override our plans. It's not easy, but nothing of great value ever is. We can begin today. We can chose to listen to God's voice over the thousands of voices shouting at us through TV, advertisements, billboards, Facebook, Twitter, the Internet. We can chose to go against the flow, to stand out, to be a little different, to shine like stars in the universe....for that is what we who are called to do. (Philippians 2:15). We can commit to taking a step forward, for standing up and standing out for what (and who) we know is true. It is then that our joy will be complete. It is then that His love will change us from the inside out.
I pray each of us will commit to surrendering ourselves to a God that loves us undeniably and to sacrificing ourselves for others, rather than living a life wholly centered on ourselves. If we do, I believe we will see mighty changes in this world, our temporary home. Amen.
Saturday, August 25, 2012
The Work of God in Us
I'm moving. In a month. Far sooner than I expected but right on time from God's perspective. I'm leaving a fabulously beautiful, fun community to be closer to my family. I can't wait. Fabulous and fun are surprisingly empty when you're miles from your loved ones. There's much to be said about a simple life filled with big love and lots of hugs. Hugs are important.
- God promises to comfort us. In times of trouble, loneliness, fear....He is always there. He will never leave nor forsake us.
As I was going through my things, trying (unsuccessfully) to downsize, I came across a poster from a bible study I lead many years ago. I thought it was good stuff and wanted to capture it here. New Christians often wonder...what will it be like, now that I've made the biggest (and best) decision of my life? These five promises describe a bit the work that God does in us once we choose to follow Him.
- God promises to comfort us. In times of trouble, loneliness, fear....He is always there. He will never leave nor forsake us.
- God promises to calibrate us. As we grown in our relationship with Him through quite time, prayer, and studying His word, He will reveal His thoughts on our behaviors, words, and deeds. He will gently (mostly) convict us of those things that hinder our relationship with Him.
- God promises to challenge us. Life on this earth is hard, but the Bible says take heart for Christ has overcome the world. Challenges give us opportunities to stand up for Jesus, opportunities to rely solely on Him, opportunities to stake our claim in His rich soil.
- God promises to change us. He won't leave us as the same person that first comes to us. He loves us to much for that. He came so that we may have life abundantly. As we seek His will for our life and run in the path of His commands He will change us from the inside out. Our friends and families will notice. We will notice.
- God promises to commission us. Go forth and make disciples of men in all the nations....so the Jesus commands. And He's gifted us with unique skills and talents to serve others and honor Him. Seek Him with all your heart and He will reveal these to you.
We can trust in God's undeniable love as He comforts, calibrates, challenges, changes, and commissions us. May you experience the joy and peace of living a life fully for Him and fully reliant on Him.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
My pesky sidekick
I carry my anxiety around like it's a favorite purse....when really it's more a pesky sidekick that won't leave me alone, or even worse a leech that has attached itself to me. As I was browning my taco meat tonight my thoughts drifted to why I can't seem to shake my anxiousness....then I realized: my anxiety stems from fear of the unknown. All my life I've been a planner, I make lists, I arrange schedules, I know where I'm going and when. I had my life planned in high school and followed that plan for a good seven years afterward. Then BAM, plan changed and I moved to Montana. Then BAM, life threw me a huge curve ball with the death of my father. I thought I was back on track where I am now but I find myself empty and wandering.... wondering where I fit in, what's my purpose, what am I doing with this one life that I know first-hand can be ripped away without a moment's notice. And to top off all of those questions, there is the bigger: "Where is my life headed?" question. I'm standing here facing the unknown head-on and I'm about as comfortable as a....cat on a cactus? cat in water? I don't know...something extremely uncomfortable. (Think climbing over barbed wire uncomfortable).
My previous boss at a job that holds the record for my shortest job ever worked pointed out that I'm not good with nebulous. Duh. I pointed out that I was a CERTIFIED PLANNER.....we don't do nebulous. Well, tough nuggies he said - get comfortable with nebulous, because the real world is nebulous. (I could go off on a whole other topic about the relationship between certified planners and the "real world".) God is forcing me to get good with nebulous, because nebulousness is where you are forced to rely on Him....and that my friends, is His ultimate desire.
Truth be told, my fear of the unknown is really the symptom of a much bigger problem that should cause me much greater concern - a lack of trust in God my Father, my Provider, my Friend, my Confident, my Savior, He who has good things in store and came so that I might have life abundantly. My fear of the unknown is really a symptom of a sin in my life. A sin of which I repent and turn from. Father, forgive me for not fully trusting in you, for placing my trust in my own strength and my own silly plans.
I'm in the middle of a process. My prayer is that God will take away my anxiety but if He doesn't, I will CHOOSE to praise Him anyway. I will CHOOSE to love Him anyway. I will CHOOSE to rejoice every day. And while this will be hard, I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me. His undeniable love makes me able to get up each day, and comforts me each night. May it do the same for you as we journey through life in our temporary home.
My previous boss at a job that holds the record for my shortest job ever worked pointed out that I'm not good with nebulous. Duh. I pointed out that I was a CERTIFIED PLANNER.....we don't do nebulous. Well, tough nuggies he said - get comfortable with nebulous, because the real world is nebulous. (I could go off on a whole other topic about the relationship between certified planners and the "real world".) God is forcing me to get good with nebulous, because nebulousness is where you are forced to rely on Him....and that my friends, is His ultimate desire.
Truth be told, my fear of the unknown is really the symptom of a much bigger problem that should cause me much greater concern - a lack of trust in God my Father, my Provider, my Friend, my Confident, my Savior, He who has good things in store and came so that I might have life abundantly. My fear of the unknown is really a symptom of a sin in my life. A sin of which I repent and turn from. Father, forgive me for not fully trusting in you, for placing my trust in my own strength and my own silly plans.
I'm in the middle of a process. My prayer is that God will take away my anxiety but if He doesn't, I will CHOOSE to praise Him anyway. I will CHOOSE to love Him anyway. I will CHOOSE to rejoice every day. And while this will be hard, I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me. His undeniable love makes me able to get up each day, and comforts me each night. May it do the same for you as we journey through life in our temporary home.
Choosing to love...
When we're young, love comes so easy....but as we eventually find out, in most cases that "love" is actually infatuation. I was talking with another single friend the other day about the challenges of finding true love later in life. In part because we realize now what true love actually is. We realize now that love is a choice, one we must chose to make. I think about those times when I was younger and sooo in love with someone. Back then I didn't choose to love, I just did. Back then that person hung the moon and the stars....back then that person might have slowly edged God out as #1 in my life. But as we all know, those times don't last. The burning flames eventually burn out if not sustained by an even stronger source. By not making a conscious choice to love, my "love" was based on superficial things and fleeting emotions. Neither of these are strong enough to keep love burning for long.
Instead, by choosing to love, our love is based on something that runs deep, on a source that is sustainable; the person's core values, the strengths they've been blessed with, the way they treat us - these are the things that matter. Our love is given in spite of the person's weaknesses and in spite of their annoying habits. Our love then, far more resembles the lasting, undeniable love of Christ and for that reason it will burn stronger, longer. This, I believe, is of far greater value than anything else in this world.
During our conversation, my friend lamented that as we get older we find it harder to trust someone yet easier to find their faults. I realized then how great the choice to love really is. To love someone in spite of their faults is a gift that we give them. More importantly, it's a gift that we give ourselves. As we chose to love someone, we're giving ourselves the opportunity to grow and become more like Christ - our ultimate goal here on this Earth. And, as we chose to love someone we're able to better experience and understand the undeniable love of Christ, that he would lay his life down for us.
Instead, by choosing to love, our love is based on something that runs deep, on a source that is sustainable; the person's core values, the strengths they've been blessed with, the way they treat us - these are the things that matter. Our love is given in spite of the person's weaknesses and in spite of their annoying habits. Our love then, far more resembles the lasting, undeniable love of Christ and for that reason it will burn stronger, longer. This, I believe, is of far greater value than anything else in this world.
During our conversation, my friend lamented that as we get older we find it harder to trust someone yet easier to find their faults. I realized then how great the choice to love really is. To love someone in spite of their faults is a gift that we give them. More importantly, it's a gift that we give ourselves. As we chose to love someone, we're giving ourselves the opportunity to grow and become more like Christ - our ultimate goal here on this Earth. And, as we chose to love someone we're able to better experience and understand the undeniable love of Christ, that he would lay his life down for us.
Saturday, July 28, 2012
God's Purpose or Mine?
God's timing is always perfect, although we may not realize that until after the fact. My previous post was about the emotional turmoil I've experienced lately. Today's entry in My Utmost for His Highest was perfect timing for me - it even used the same word. It's a great reminder that life isn't about the end result, it's about the process. God is always working to shape us and mold us to be more like Christ....the ups and downs in life are part of that process.
"We tend to think that if Jesus Christ compels us to do something and we are obedient to Him, He will lead us to great success. We should never have the thought that our dreams of success are God’s purpose for us. In fact, His purpose may be exactly the opposite. We have the idea that God is leading us toward a particular end or a desired goal, but He is not. The question of whether or not we arrive at a particular goal is of little importance, and reaching it becomes merely an episode along the way. What we see as only the process of reaching a particular end, God sees as the goal itself.
What is my vision of God’s purpose for me? Whatever it may be, His purpose is for me to depend on Him and on His power now. If I can stay calm, faithful, and unconfused while in the middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me. God is not working toward a particular finish— His purpose is the process itself. What He desires for me is that I see “Him walking on the sea” with no shore, no success, nor goal in sight, but simply having the absolute certainty that everything is all right because I see “Him walking on the sea” (Mark 6:49). It is the process, not the outcome, that is glorifying to God.
God’s training is for now, not later. His purpose is for this very minute, not for sometime in the future. We have nothing to do with what will follow our obedience, and we are wrong to concern ourselves with it. What people call preparation, God sees as the goal itself.
God’s purpose is to enable me to see that He can walk on the storms of my life right now. If we have a further goal in mind, we are not paying enough attention to the present time. However, if we realize that moment-by-moment obedience is the goal, then each moment as it comes is precious."
Friday, July 27, 2012
Christian Lessons from the Olympics?
Tonight over a billion people watched the three-hour opening ceremonies to the 2012 Olympics. As I sat there watching the lighting of the final torch it struck me that were were in essence worshiping the role of sports and athletics in our society. I'm certainly not meaning to discount the hard work and dedication of each of the athletes involved in this long standing tradition. I just can't help but wonder when the last time was that so much time, money, and effort was put into a worship ceremony for our God. When was the last time that over a billion people came together to worship and honor all that God does for us? All that Jesus did for us? I'm hopeful there were hundreds, maybe thousands of people standing in that Olympic stadium thanking God for their success. Oh that we lived in a world where celebrating our faith was a unifying experience, like celebrating athletic performance, rather than one filled with division, anger, and pure hatred.
Is there a lesson we can learn from the way sports brings people together? From the ways athletics seems to bridge geographic and demographic differences? Or, is this just a sign of the times that we're living in?
Peace that transcends
This morning during my prayer time I asked God these questions: Where has my peace gone to? Why am I constantly on a roller coaster of emotions? What is the turmoil I'm constantly feeling in my heart? How do I cultivate peace in my heart again? How do I find it?
I believe this is what He laid on my heart:
"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:4-7)
These verses tell us to do four things:
1) Rejoice
2) Let our gentleness be evident
3) Don't be anxious
4) Pray and submit our requests to God with thanksgiving.
Then, the scripture says, the peace of God will protect our hearts and our minds.
Rejoice: to be glad; take delight in; to feel or express great joy and happiness . The commentary in my Bible says: "Our inner attitudes don't have to reflect our outward circumstances." So, even though I may be surrounded by turmoil, I can CHOSE to rejoice. And, if I follow the scripture, I am commanded to rejoice. Always. Whew. That takes a lot of effort and energy - especially when I look around with my human eyes and find little to rejoice about. But, as a follower of Christ desiring to receive the richness that He offers, I must make that choice.
Gentleness: deliberate, voluntary kindness; peaceful; not severe, rough, or violent.
And when I need a reminder that God loves me and desires only good for me, the scripture says:
"And we know that in all things God worlds for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28)
My Bible commentary says "God is not working to make us happy, nut to fulfill his purpose." Ultimately, my greatest desire is for God to fulfill His purpose in my life. While I may not always be in a state of happiness, I can rest assured in knowing that God is in control of my life and using all things, good and bad, to fulfill that purpose. My God's love is undeniable, this I know, this I can rely on, in this I find peace.
I believe this is what He laid on my heart:
"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:4-7)
These verses tell us to do four things:
1) Rejoice
2) Let our gentleness be evident
3) Don't be anxious
4) Pray and submit our requests to God with thanksgiving.
Then, the scripture says, the peace of God will protect our hearts and our minds.
Rejoice: to be glad; take delight in; to feel or express great joy and happiness . The commentary in my Bible says: "Our inner attitudes don't have to reflect our outward circumstances." So, even though I may be surrounded by turmoil, I can CHOSE to rejoice. And, if I follow the scripture, I am commanded to rejoice. Always. Whew. That takes a lot of effort and energy - especially when I look around with my human eyes and find little to rejoice about. But, as a follower of Christ desiring to receive the richness that He offers, I must make that choice.
Gentleness: deliberate, voluntary kindness; peaceful; not severe, rough, or violent.
And when I need a reminder that God loves me and desires only good for me, the scripture says:
"And we know that in all things God worlds for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28)
My Bible commentary says "God is not working to make us happy, nut to fulfill his purpose." Ultimately, my greatest desire is for God to fulfill His purpose in my life. While I may not always be in a state of happiness, I can rest assured in knowing that God is in control of my life and using all things, good and bad, to fulfill that purpose. My God's love is undeniable, this I know, this I can rely on, in this I find peace.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Character v. Happiness
I had a bit of a realization yesterday, perhaps more of a reminder since I'm pretty sure I've learned this before. Because God loves us, He is more concerned about our eternal character than our earthly happiness. That's a little bit of a big pill to swallow. You mean it's not all about me Lord? You're not uber concerned about my happiness? Why not? Aren't you a loving God? Don't you want me to be happy?
Yes. Yes, He is concerned about my happiness, my eternal happiness. This was my realization. In the midst of trying to 'figure things out', as I'm way too often trying to do, I realized that God is more concerned about the end result. These trials that I'm facing, the uncertainty, the awkwardness, the disappointment, all of it is about my character. It is my character (not my happiness) that stores up riches for me in Heaven. It is my character (not my happiness) that ultimately allows Christ's light to shine through me. It is my character (not my happiness) that allows me to love another when I myself am feeling defeated, empty, or depressed. It is my character (not my happiness) that brings me closer to God. It is character (not happiness) that produces hope.
"And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. (Romans 5:3-5)
May we all continue to walk in and trust in God's undeniable love as He shapes our character.
Yes. Yes, He is concerned about my happiness, my eternal happiness. This was my realization. In the midst of trying to 'figure things out', as I'm way too often trying to do, I realized that God is more concerned about the end result. These trials that I'm facing, the uncertainty, the awkwardness, the disappointment, all of it is about my character. It is my character (not my happiness) that stores up riches for me in Heaven. It is my character (not my happiness) that ultimately allows Christ's light to shine through me. It is my character (not my happiness) that allows me to love another when I myself am feeling defeated, empty, or depressed. It is my character (not my happiness) that brings me closer to God. It is character (not happiness) that produces hope.
"And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. (Romans 5:3-5)
May we all continue to walk in and trust in God's undeniable love as He shapes our character.
Friday, May 18, 2012
Obedience
I'm a fairly obedient person. I try not to speed. I follow general public order signs, "Please wait to be seated.", "No loitering.", "No outside candy in the theater." (Okay that last one isn't always true.) I was pretty obedient in school, only getting sent to the Principal's office once for wearing flip flops (I had a "severe" toe injury). I even try to follow my current professor's unreasonable page formatting expectations. (Who uses double space in grad school!) Anyways, all in all, I'm pretty 'rule-abiding'. This includes the big 10 - you know, the Ten Commandments. But there's one area where I struggle. Trusting in God.
You may say, will that's not obedience that's trust; it's different. Before I might have agreed but I believe now that we are called to trust in God, we are called not to worry and it's a matter of obedience. It's not a 'Hey, if you can, don't worry. If you have the desire, trust in Me. If it's not too hard, place your life in my hands." No. We're called to lay our burdens down, to stop worrying; to know that God values us more than the lilies in the field.
As I mentioned in my last post I've been anxious lately. I've never experienced this type of anxiety. I've cried out to God; I've felt lonely, empty, and at times abandoned. But of course, I know this isn't true. I know my God will never leave nor forsake me and that He is with me always. But sometimes that doesn't make it any easier. Finally, the other night I believe God clearly called my anxiety what it was - a case of disobedience. (Please note: I know many people struggle with anxiousness, I am not in anyway saying their anxiety is disobedience....this is just what I believe for me.) I believe God called me out on my lack of trust in Him; on my lack of faith that He truly has the best in mind for me; that He truly will call all things to work together for my good; that He will complete the work He's started in me. And He'd be right (of course). Frankly, I've been angry with God lately. I've been frustrated with Him. And therefore, I've been disobedient.
My prayer now is of course one of repentance, asking for forgiveness. It's a prayer of thanks for the grace I know I've already received. And it's a prayer for strength as I walk forward each day on this journey God has me on. I may not understand it but I will trust in Him; I will trust in His undeniable love to see me through each day, each trial, and each anxious moment. I love Him. I have faith in Him. I will be obedient in my Faith to Him. Amen.
"Through Him and for His name's sake, we received grace and apostleship to call people from among all the Gentiles to the obedience that comes from faith." - Romans 1:5
You may say, will that's not obedience that's trust; it's different. Before I might have agreed but I believe now that we are called to trust in God, we are called not to worry and it's a matter of obedience. It's not a 'Hey, if you can, don't worry. If you have the desire, trust in Me. If it's not too hard, place your life in my hands." No. We're called to lay our burdens down, to stop worrying; to know that God values us more than the lilies in the field.
As I mentioned in my last post I've been anxious lately. I've never experienced this type of anxiety. I've cried out to God; I've felt lonely, empty, and at times abandoned. But of course, I know this isn't true. I know my God will never leave nor forsake me and that He is with me always. But sometimes that doesn't make it any easier. Finally, the other night I believe God clearly called my anxiety what it was - a case of disobedience. (Please note: I know many people struggle with anxiousness, I am not in anyway saying their anxiety is disobedience....this is just what I believe for me.) I believe God called me out on my lack of trust in Him; on my lack of faith that He truly has the best in mind for me; that He truly will call all things to work together for my good; that He will complete the work He's started in me. And He'd be right (of course). Frankly, I've been angry with God lately. I've been frustrated with Him. And therefore, I've been disobedient.
My prayer now is of course one of repentance, asking for forgiveness. It's a prayer of thanks for the grace I know I've already received. And it's a prayer for strength as I walk forward each day on this journey God has me on. I may not understand it but I will trust in Him; I will trust in His undeniable love to see me through each day, each trial, and each anxious moment. I love Him. I have faith in Him. I will be obedient in my Faith to Him. Amen.
"Through Him and for His name's sake, we received grace and apostleship to call people from among all the Gentiles to the obedience that comes from faith." - Romans 1:5
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Anxiety
Anxiety. Anxiousness. Two words I've come to know all too well lately. You're first question might be why? What are you anxious about? Trust me, if I knew and could pinpoint it that easily I would, and I would solve the problem. Because that's what I do. I'm a problem solver.
But I don't know. And I can't solve it. I can just wait. I'm chalking it up as a learning experience from God. A chance to practice relying on him in big and small things. In walking down the street and flying across the country. In my current job and my future career. In the responsibilities that I have now and those that are surely to come. In my present state and hopeful dreams.
I saw a quote recently that said something like, "Anxiety is the result of freedom's choices." Perhaps this is true. Perhaps I have too many choices in front of me (I've never been so good at making decisions.) If so, I suppose the solution is trusting God in those choices. Trusting that, if I listen to that still, small voice, He will make His will known. His undeniable love will surround me, and guide, and grant me peace.
A friend of mine sent me these verses. I found them helpful:
Psalm 143:8,10-11 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble
Psalm 127:2In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat--for he grants sleep to [fn] those he loves
Psalm 26:1Vindicate me, O LORD, for I have led a blameless life; I have trusted in the LORD without wavering.
Psalm 112:6-7Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered forever. He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
Psalm 17:7-8Show the wonder of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes. Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings
Psalm 16:8-9I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure,
Psalm 4:7You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.
Psalm 94:18
When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.
1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.....
Put another way: "I cast all my anxiety on You because You care for me..... You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety. I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure. Show the wonder of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes. Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings. Vindicate me, O LORD, for I have led a blameless life; I have trusted in the LORD without wavering. When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul. Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered forever. He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble."
I am reminded too of this verse, one of my favorites: "Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun." - Psalm 37:4-6 (NIV)
But I don't know. And I can't solve it. I can just wait. I'm chalking it up as a learning experience from God. A chance to practice relying on him in big and small things. In walking down the street and flying across the country. In my current job and my future career. In the responsibilities that I have now and those that are surely to come. In my present state and hopeful dreams.
I saw a quote recently that said something like, "Anxiety is the result of freedom's choices." Perhaps this is true. Perhaps I have too many choices in front of me (I've never been so good at making decisions.) If so, I suppose the solution is trusting God in those choices. Trusting that, if I listen to that still, small voice, He will make His will known. His undeniable love will surround me, and guide, and grant me peace.
A friend of mine sent me these verses. I found them helpful:
Psalm 143:8,10-11 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble
Psalm 127:2In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat--for he grants sleep to [fn] those he loves
Psalm 26:1Vindicate me, O LORD, for I have led a blameless life; I have trusted in the LORD without wavering.
Psalm 112:6-7Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered forever. He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
Psalm 17:7-8Show the wonder of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes. Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings
Psalm 16:8-9I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure,
Psalm 4:7You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.
Psalm 94:18
When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.
1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.....
Put another way: "I cast all my anxiety on You because You care for me..... You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety. I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure. Show the wonder of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes. Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings. Vindicate me, O LORD, for I have led a blameless life; I have trusted in the LORD without wavering. When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul. Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered forever. He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble."
I am reminded too of this verse, one of my favorites: "Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun." - Psalm 37:4-6 (NIV)
Sunday, May 6, 2012
All for His Glory
There are days when I feel pretty good about where I am, where I've been, and where I'm headed. Then there are days I don't. On those days I question my purpose in life. I question whether I'm doing what I should be doing to achieve my purpose. What does God want me to do? Where is He?
There are days when I think all is good in the world. I am full of hope for the future, joy in the present, and appreciation for the past. Then there are moments when I miss my dad so much my breath stops, when my heart breaks from loneliness, and when I question why. Why sickness, why death, why shattered dreams and broken hearts? Where is God in this?
Am I trying to do too much? Am I trying to be too much? Are my attempts at filling the hole by my doing and being simply making the hole larger? I think yes.
I think I make things too complicated. I think my purpose is simple: to love God and love others. To experience and share His undeniable love with those around me. But how do I do this when I feel so empty? How do I pour out what I've yet to capture? So I pray. 'Father, please give me strength. Fill me up with your Holy Spirit. Make me whole Lord so I may serve you and honor you with my life. Point out those things in my life that are keeping me from fully receiving You.' And I get up, and I do my part. I chose Him over the distractions of the world. I run freely in the paths of His commands. I surrender my joy and my pain to him; my fullness and my brokenness; and I trust that He uses it all for His glory. Amen.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Getting to Where God Wants Me
If I want to get where God wants me to be, which of course I do, I have to travel the path He's prepared for me. I have to be obedient to Him. I have to use His means not mine. His strength not mine. I have to rely on His understanding not my understanding. His ability not mine. His power not my power. His words not mine.
If I want to get to this place., I have to run in the path of His commands.
I trust that the Lord wants to use me to expand His kingdom, just as He wants to use you. I trust that I can be a part of sharing His undeniable love if only I will seek Him with all of my heart, put His calling before my own interests, and allow Him to work through me through the power of the Holy Spirit.
If I want to get to this place., I have to run in the path of His commands.
I trust that the Lord wants to use me to expand His kingdom, just as He wants to use you. I trust that I can be a part of sharing His undeniable love if only I will seek Him with all of my heart, put His calling before my own interests, and allow Him to work through me through the power of the Holy Spirit.
"I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free." Psalm 119:32
"Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight." Psalm 119:35
Friday, April 27, 2012
The Fellowship of the Unashamed
Dr. Robert Morehead tells the story of a young man from Rwanda who was forced by his tribe in 1980 to renounce Christ or face death. He refused to renounce Christ and was murdered on the spot. The night before he had written the following commitment which was found in his room. Oh that we all could make this kind of commitment for the Gospel of Christ and become a member of the Fellowship of the Unashamed.
"I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.
I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.
My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear.
I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I won't give up, back up, let up, or shut up until I've preached up, prayed up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until He returns, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He comes.
And when He comes to get His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My colors will be clear for "I am not ashamed of the Gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes.." (Romans 1:16).
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
The Costs of Sanctification
In today's devotional in My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers says, "Are we prepared to pay the cost of sanctification? The cost will be a deep restriction of all our earthly concerns, and an extensive cultivation of all our godly concerns. Sanctification means to be intensely focused on God's point of view. It means to secure and to keep all the strength of our body, soul, and spirit for God's purpose alone. Are we really prepared for God to perform in us everything for which he separated us?"
I love this.
First, what is sanctification? The process of being set apart for God's purpose, the process of becoming more like Christ. It's not easy, it's not always fun, and it's sometimes straight up painful.
Second, what are the costs of sanctification? "a deep restriction of our earthly concerns" and "an extensive cultivation of our godly concerns" So, a lessening of what the world values and an expanding of what God values. You may be saying, 'Well that sounds good, that doesn't sound like a cost, it sounds like a benefit, I want to value what God values.' I agree, I'm sure most of us would. But what about when what we value contradicts with what God values? How we use our time, spend our money, make our money, what we do with our free time, the type of clothes we wear, the type of house we live in, where we live....the list goes on. Are we willing to let go of what we value to receive what God values?
Third, are keeping all the strength of our "body, soul, and spirit" for God's purposes? Or, are we so spent physically, emotionally, and spiritually that we have nothing left to offer God. Are we so busy doing our 'job' that we've forgotten to do our jobs as followers of Christ? Does God receive the first fruits of our energy, our emotions,and our souls? Or do we allow the pressures and cares of the world to drain us?
Fourth, God has set us apart for a special, and unique purpose! Each one of us has a part to play in the story we find ourselves in. God is working all around us and He invites us to join Him EVERYDAY! Are we accepting His invitation?
My road to sanctification is long and winding.....but I have faith that I'm moving in the right direction. As the Psalms say, "I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free." (119:32 NIV) Sanctification is hard, but God's yoke is easy and His love is undeniable. Cling to Him and He will set your heart free.
I love this.
First, what is sanctification? The process of being set apart for God's purpose, the process of becoming more like Christ. It's not easy, it's not always fun, and it's sometimes straight up painful.
Second, what are the costs of sanctification? "a deep restriction of our earthly concerns" and "an extensive cultivation of our godly concerns" So, a lessening of what the world values and an expanding of what God values. You may be saying, 'Well that sounds good, that doesn't sound like a cost, it sounds like a benefit, I want to value what God values.' I agree, I'm sure most of us would. But what about when what we value contradicts with what God values? How we use our time, spend our money, make our money, what we do with our free time, the type of clothes we wear, the type of house we live in, where we live....the list goes on. Are we willing to let go of what we value to receive what God values?
Third, are keeping all the strength of our "body, soul, and spirit" for God's purposes? Or, are we so spent physically, emotionally, and spiritually that we have nothing left to offer God. Are we so busy doing our 'job' that we've forgotten to do our jobs as followers of Christ? Does God receive the first fruits of our energy, our emotions,and our souls? Or do we allow the pressures and cares of the world to drain us?
Fourth, God has set us apart for a special, and unique purpose! Each one of us has a part to play in the story we find ourselves in. God is working all around us and He invites us to join Him EVERYDAY! Are we accepting His invitation?
My road to sanctification is long and winding.....but I have faith that I'm moving in the right direction. As the Psalms say, "I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free." (119:32 NIV) Sanctification is hard, but God's yoke is easy and His love is undeniable. Cling to Him and He will set your heart free.
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